by Pam Wanhala
Being asked how many children you have,
Is an easy answer for the average family.
To a parent who has lost their child
How do I answer thee?
Physically, we have one child,
Our daughter, who we love and adore.
What I want people to realize
Is that we actually have one more.
Our daughter has an older brother
Who has served his time on earth.
His fate and destiny were planned
From the moment of his birth.
When the Good Lord takes your child
It's very hard to understand.
But, it's not for us to question God,
Nor His divine and infinite plan.
I know deep in my heart my son is happy
In a place he deserves to be.
Away from all the pain of hospitals, tests,
Doctors, radiation and chemotherapy.
Long ago I was asked; "Would I choose not to
Have my son, or do it all again."
I wanted to cry out to the world:
"Not to would have been the ultimate sin."
The Good Lord knows that I would never
Wish this fate on my darkest enemy.
I feel blessed He chose us;
As the parents to live this destiny.
When I am down and blue, as I sometimes get
And ask the question "Why us?"
After little soul searching I realized
We were blessed when in God we put our trust.
So, from the time I first held my daughter,
At the miracle and stillness of her birth.
When asked the question "How many children I have?"
I reply: "Two angels, one in heaven and one on earth".